3rd Basketball Memorial Game for mummy...

Pre-game work out to loosen up those rippling muscles...

Procure a ball...

Here I come...

Woohoo! My opening basket...

A beautiful game...

Ambitious half court shot!

Can't touch me...

Basketball scrum!

Yeah, this is so much easier...

Take a bow guys...

C'mon everyone, we can do better!

Ok, ok, that's better.
A big thank you to Aunty Sheena and Prisca for organising yet another successful memorial.
Thank you for all the wonderful friends that turned up in support.
Friendship at its best. Friendship at its purest

We love and miss you very much mummy!

3rd Frances Ng Basketball Memorial 2008:
The time has arrived yet again for the traditional gathering of friends and kindred souls to remember our much beloved Frances. The venue has been kindly sponsored by her alma mater, at the CHIJ Toa Payoh premises. Date is set for the 20th of September, Saturday. Time, 4 pm onwards. Please come if you can to catch up, reminisce & play with Evan.

Used to be so easy, to give my heart away,
But I found out the hard way
There's a price you have to pay,
I found out that love, is no friend of mine,
I should have known, time after time,
So long, it was so long ago,
But I've still got the blues for you

Used to be so easy, fall in love again,
But I found out the hard way
It's a road that leads to pain,
I found that love, was more than just a game,
Playing to win, but you lose just the same,
So long, it was so long ago,
But I've still got the blues for you,

So many years, since I've seen your face,
But here in my heart, there's an empty space you used to be,
So long, it was so long ago,
But I still got the blues for you,
Though the days come and go
There is one thing I know,
I've still, got the blues, for you.

-Gary Moore, Still Got The Blues For You.

The Intrepid Adventures of Evan and Vee "in the Congo"

"They're after us! Let's get out of here, quick!"

"Ok, ok, I'm driving as fast as I can!"

"Oh no, the front wheel's stuck!"

"So is the rear wheel!"

"Here they come!"

"Quick, put it into reverse!"

"Let me take over..."

"I think it's curtains for us..."

"You run and I'll keep them busy!"

"That's another fine mess you've got me into..."

Charging ahead into the jungle of life

Evan continues to grow well. Despite lingering concerns for his motor development and vocalisation, he thrives and appears to be developing normally albeit slower. It's amazing how much change you fail to notice when you spend so much time around someone. Most people who haven't seen him for some time usually remark how big he has grown. I guess he is growing. Ironically the only stark testimony to his growth, for me, is reflected in his simple diapers. His gradual demands for bigger diapers brings home the message that my baby boo-boo is sadly, no longer little. Just this week, we've had to upgrade him to the 'XL' sized diapers in order to fit all the urine that his 13kg body is generating. A far cry from the size 'S' that he used to crawl in only yesterday it seems.

Me & Oscar are pals

Despite my gratefulness at his relentless growth, lingering concerns about his slow physical development continue to permeate the fabric of my imagination. Is he just slower or is there a problem that will rear its head unannounced somewhere down the road? Will I be able to cope with the disappointment and sorrow of such a tragedy? I guess I've been through worse. The innocence is heart rending. Only time will tell.

'Gotcha!'

My impersonation of a 'cat nap'

I loved her like the leaves,
The lush green leaves of spring
That pulled down the willows
on the bank's edge
where we walked
while she was of this world.
I built my life on her.
But man cannot flout
the laws of this world.
To the shimmering wide fields hidden by the white cloud,
white as white silk scarf
she soared away like the morning bird,
hid from our world like the setting sun.
The child, the gift she left behind- he cries for food; but always
finding nothing that I might give him,
I pick him up & hold him in my arms.
On the pillows where we lay,
My wife & I, as one,
I pass the daylight lonely till the dusk,
the black night sighing till the dawn.
I grieve and grieve and know no remedy.
I ache and know no road where I might meet her.

- Kakinonoto Hitomaro, Japan, 7th century

Can I have my cake and eat it too pweety please?


"The Terrible Twos!" Seriously, it takes two to Tchaikovsky!

It's been awhile. Life has been busy. Not any easier, but at least certifiably occupied. I've been growing in the meanwhile. People who haven't seen me for some time say I am tall. Papa says I eat well, and eat a lot. That's supposed to be good for a growing boy. I've been having my fair share of bugs and fever, but much to the relief of papa, much less than before. I am also much more assertive than ever, much to everyone's chagrin. Coupled with my innate skills in squirminess, gets me much of what I want these days. Most of the time at least. I am exploring the world of vocalisation lately. I am currently trying to decide between two languages- English and Bablyish. My enunciation needs improving, but I'm learning new words and phrases each passing day. Stay tuned!

I just made funny patterns all over the clean wall with my crayons!

Four letters that I look forward to- HFMD! Every time papa says those words, I get to skip school and stay at home, play on the beach, swim in the pool and generally not do very much except sip milk under the hot tropical sun. There has been a major outbreak of Hand Foot and Mouth Disease (HFMD) in Singapore lately, and one of my schools had to shut down in order to bring the outbreak under control. Papa says that HFMD is not usually a nasty bug, but moderately infectious and because almost a quarter of this year's outbreak involved the potentially deadly EV71 (Enterovirus) strain, most people are afraid.

My latest review with my doctors have confirmed that I am still behind in my gross motor development. My muscle tone and posture are still not there yet. Papa is also watching the situation with my speech development closely. I can only try my best, and papa says that's enough for him.



I recently visited a local goat farm with my buddy Vee Shen. I love animals, though I'm not sure if they like me. Papa says its something to do with my tail and ear pulling that doesn't help very much. It was a smelly affair, and I even got to feed them with grass. Papa bought some goat's milk for me to drink, but I didn't like it very much.



"row, row, row your boat, gently down the stream, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream"

rain.
it rained.
I
fell.
it
rained
I
loved.
it
rained.
I lost.
it
rained.
It
loved.
I
rained.
rain.

The following are some photos from my recently celebrated 2nd birthday. There was a small outdoor party thrown in my honor on Saturday. The weather added to a perfect evening- no rain, but cloudy enough to keep temperatures relatively cool. I owe a big thank-you to Aunty Germaine for baking the perfect yummy cake for me.

We spent the Sunday morning hiking, cycling and splashing our way through the island of Pulau Ubin, and the wetlands of Chek Jawa. It was our second excursion on this rustic island. Again we had perfect weather on this thoroughly enjoyable trip. Thank you mummy for taking care of us these last couple of days.

Wish I could do this everyday...

About to set the record attempt for the youngest person to swim across the channel...

That's disgusting, can't you learn to control yourself? Get me out of here quick!

It's ok Evan, your dad needed a quick refill of alcohol...

We really should bring more beer on the next trip...

All's well that ends well!

The winds of time blow quietly by,
As Autumn leaves bid farewell to another year.
A fleeting dream of you, Evan and me,
Washed away by the blood stained tear.

Two winters have passed amid long lonely nights,
As we sit at our dinner table set for three,
Waiting patiently in the fading candle light,
We have missed your warmth so very dearly.

Forever in our hearts.

I've had many times I can tell you
Times when innocence I'd trade for company
And children saw me crying
I thought I had my share of that
But these miss you nights Are the longest
Midnight diamonds
Stud my heaven
Southward burning
Lie the jewels that eye my place
And the warm winds
That embrace me
Just as surely kissed your face
Yeah these miss you nights
Are the longest

How I miss you I'm not likely to tell
I'm a man and cold day light
Buys the pride I'd rather sell
All my secrets
Are wasted affair
You know them well
Thinking of my going
How to cut the thread
And leave it all behind
Looking windward for my compass
I take each day as it arrives
But these miss you nights
Are the longest

Lay down all thought of your surrender
Its only me who's killing time
Lay down all dreams and themes once remembered
Its just the same
This miss you game
Yeah these miss you nights
Are the longest

-Miss you nights, Cliff Richard
.

My life has fallen down
around me before
-lots of times,
for lots of reasons-
usually other people.

And most of the time
I was fortunate enough
to have a large lump of
that life hit me on the
head and render me numb
to the pain & desolation
that followed.
And I survived.
And I live to love again.

But this,
this slow erosion from below
-or within-
it's me falling down around my life
because you're still in that life
-but not really.
And you're out of that life
-but not quite.

I do all right
alone,
and better
together,
but
I do very poorly
when
semi-
together.

In solitude
I do much,
in love
I do more,
but
in doubt
I only transfer
pain to paper
in gigantic Passion Plays
complete with miracles and martyrs
and crucifixions and resurrections.
This series of passion poems
is becoming a heavy cross to bare.

As the deer canters forth for the water,
So my soul longs after your spirit,
You alone are my heart's desire,
And I long to hold you in my arms
You alone were my strength, my shield,
To you alone made my spirit yield,
You alone are my heart's desire,
And I long to cherish thee.

You were my friend,
And you were my soul mate,
Even though you were my Queen.
I love you more than any other,
So much more than anything.
You alone were my strength, my shield,
To you alone made my spirit yield,
You alone were my heart's desire,
And I long to cherish thee.

May your soul rest in everlasting peace my dearest Frances.

Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go, yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you planned:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.

-Remember, Christina Rossetti

I am Joy.
I am everything.
I can do all things but two:

1. forget that I love you.

2. forget that I love you.